My son, Samuel (3yrs), recently injured his thumb and it’s been causing him quite a bit of pain. After a visit to the E.R., we discovered he had an abscess under his thumbnail that had to be lanced and drained. Gross, I know. The pus and infection was swelling up and putting so much pressure on his tiny little thumb that the pain was almost unbearable for him. He cried uncontrollably. To my son, this injury is monumental. In the beginning, he couldn’t think about anything else. It was a constant aching and he could not find any relief. But once the doctor was able to open the wound and release the infection, the pain became less and things are starting to heal. And he’s crying a lot less. But today he was having trouble doing ordinary, everyday tasks like brushing his teeth, holding his fork, using a pencil for school time. His wound has not completely healed. So in his frustration he asked this question; this one, seemingly simple question that I could have just blown off. “Mommy, why did God make me have a boo-boo?” I could have told him “Oh sweetie, God didn’t make you have a boo-boo! He loves you too much!” in attempts to comfort my son. But then I would be teaching him that things that hurt, things that cause pain, don’t come from God. That if God loves you, He won’t let you get boo-boos. And I couldn’t do that. So this is what I said. “Sweetie, sometimes things in life hurt. And God may let you get a boo-boo or even cause a boo-boo so that you can glorify Him. Sometimes when things hurt, that’s when we have to trust in God and let Him take care of us.”
Not unlike my son, I was injured in a way that caused quite a bit of pain. The discovery of my husband’s sexual sin made me feel pain in ways I didn’t know possible. It was monumental. I was utterly hopeless, feeling completely alone and confused. The pain was almost unbearable. At times, I cried uncontrollably. I couldn’t find any relief. But I took my pain to Jesus. The only things I could do. Jesus is a good physician, One who can heal even the deepest wounds. He opened up my wounds through His Word and began to release the infection that was causing so much pressure, causing so much pain: bitterness, anger, hatred, resentment, unforgiveness, pride, fear. And as He did, things started to heal and I cried a lot less. But there were times when I still found myself having trouble doing ordinary, everyday tasks. Like focusing on my children. Getting my housework done. Reading God’s Word. Even getting out of bed. And in my frustration, I have asked God this same, seemingly simple question. Why did God make me have this boo-boo? Why would He let me go through so much pain? Why wasn’t He watching out for me? Why didn’t He shield me from it? Some people would tell me that God didn’t cause this or even allow it to come to pass. Why would a loving God do that? But the Truth is life hurts. Life is full of suffering and pain and God allows trials and tribulations in our lives to bring glory to Him. So that when things hurt, we can trust in Him and He will take care of us.
At first, my son had no hope that the pain would subside. He was in despair. But as the antibiotics are working and time goes by, his days are getting brighter and he is able to find joy again. In the same way, you may be feeling hopeless. You may feel like the pain will never subside. You may be in despair. But Jesus can heal your broken heart. Whether your husband is repentant or not, Jesus wants to heal YOU. And as you begin to give those infectious poisons over to Him –bitterness, anger, hatred, resentment, unforgiveness, pride, fear – and as time goes by, your days will get brighter. You can find joy again. God may be giving you a great opportunity to glorify Him through these trials in your life. Trust in Him and He will take care of you.
“God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.” Psalm 46:1
Walking in Freedom,
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