Jesus came to pardon our sins, but He also came to heal the brokenhearted so we can walk in freedom. Freedom from pain, guilt, shame, sin, and condemnation. By His wounds we are healed. May God continue to bless us on the path to complete restoration and healing in Him.
Who would’ve thought that double-decker Tacos would have set me back? Not me, that’s for sure! My husband loves the Taco Bell make-at-home double decker tacos. We used to make them all the time, years ago and then for some reason I stopped making them (I assume this was before we had children who will only eat PBJs). I don’t particularly care for them but I always made them special, just for him. After being the sweet husband he is and doing the grocery shopping for me, I noticed that he bought a back of the tacos he likes! So Wednesday after church I opened them up and started making them. The house was quiet because all the kids were in bed already (thank you, Jesus!) and all of a sudden the darn double-decker tacos triggered my brain to remember all the pain, all the confusion, all the questions, all the fears that I had felt when I learned of my husband’s addiction to pornography a few years ago. It made me sad. Stupid tacos.
But the funny thing is, I didn’t cry like I would have a year ago. I didn’t get angry like I would have a year ago. I didn’t spiral into a crazy mess of insecurities like I would have a year ago. No. I was sad for just a moment. Then I told my husband that it brought back a lot of memories, we talked for a minute, and I was ok. We sat and watched The Big Bang Theory and enjoyed our tacos (mine without the extra deck!). It’s crazy to look back over the years of healing and everything we’ve been through, and to see how God has restored us. The pain is subsiding. I’m not really hurt anymore. I’m not even angry anymore. And when I do think of the past, I might get sad when I think of all that we went through. But I also rejoice in knowing that GOD still restores, heals, redeems, and transforms His people. That His Word is TRUE when it says, “And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose” (Romans 8:28).
God is so good.
Walking in Freedom,
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