Jesus came to pardon our sins, but He also came to heal the brokenhearted so we can walk in freedom.  Freedom from pain, guilt, shame, sin, and condemnation. By His wounds we are healed. May God continue to bless us on the path to complete restoration and healing in Him.  

Fear of Trusting God Completely

Posted by Kristina Croft on Wednesday, October 2, 2013

Ok so, as a pastor's wife, most people think trusting God completely is easy for me; like I have some sort of super-christian faith that I've absorbed from my super-christian husband/pastor. But that is not the truth! I do struggle with trusting God completely. (Though I'm not sure why; He's never let me down.) But in my selfishness and my need to be in control, I find it difficult to turn things altogether over to the Lord.

This was especially true with my husband's sobriety. My husband has overcome a 16 year addiction to pornography and has remained sober for several years. But for me, there were times I just didn't get it. HOW could a man go from looking at pornography everyday and having a mind that was completely immersed in sexual immorality to being a man who is wholly SET FREE!? I used to think, “There's gotta be a catch! Something's gotta give!” And I was afraid to trust God completely. I questioned Him many times. But in spite of my doubting, God has been faithful. And so has my husband. I'm not saying it's been “easy” at all. But this journey from repentance to sobriety, healing, and restoration has been quite amazing. And to be honest, it is always much easier on the days that I do trust in God completely. In the beginning, there were many days that I would try to control everything and be the porn-police. I was obsessed with keeping tabs on him and questioning everything. I was terrified to let go and trust God. But when I finally decided to believe that God HAD started a good work in my husband and that He WOULD be faithful to complete it, things did become easier.

There's always a fear and vulnerability when it comes to humbling yourself before God and completely trusting in Him. But in the end, He's the only One who actually has the power to change anything... so what are you waiting for?
Walking in Freedom,

Tags: fear  trusting god  pornography addiction  recovery  healing  restoration 
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