Jesus came to pardon our sins, but He also came to heal the brokenhearted so we can walk in freedom. Freedom from pain, guilt, shame, sin, and condemnation. By His wounds we are healed. May God continue to bless us on the path to complete restoration and healing in Him.
so, as a pastor's wife, most people think trusting God completely is
easy for me; like I have some sort of super-christian faith that I've
absorbed from my super-christian husband/pastor. But that is not the
truth! I do struggle with trusting God completely. (Though I'm not
sure why; He's never let me down.) But in my selfishness and my need
to be in control, I find it difficult to turn things altogether over
to the Lord.
was especially true with my husband's sobriety. My husband has
overcome a 16 year addiction to pornography and has remained sober
for several years. But for me, there were times I just didn't get it.
HOW could a man go from looking at pornography everyday and having a
mind that was completely immersed in sexual immorality to being a
man who is wholly SET FREE!? I used to think, “There's gotta be a
catch! Something's gotta give!” And I was afraid to trust God
completely. I questioned Him many times. But in spite of my doubting,
God has been faithful. And so has my husband. I'm not saying it's
been “easy” at all. But this journey from repentance to sobriety,
healing, and restoration has been quite amazing. And to be honest,
it is always much easier on the days that I do trust in God
completely. In the beginning, there were many days that I would try
to control everything and be the porn-police. I was obsessed with
keeping tabs on him and questioning everything. I was terrified to
let go and trust God. But when I finally decided to believe that God
HAD started a good work in my husband and that He WOULD be faithful
to complete it, things did become easier.
always a fear and vulnerability when it comes to humbling yourself
before God and completely trusting in Him. But in the end, He's the
only One who actually has the power to change anything... so what are you waiting for?Walking in Freedom,Kristina
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