Having a major trauma or trial in your life will often shift your focus. I know that was my experience. The first 2 months for me were consumed with pain, self-doubt, confusion, anger, and bitterness, and all I could think about was my husband’s betrayal. I had a hard time seeking God (at first) and I had an even more difficult time applying His Word to anything other than sexual sin. It seemed that every verse I read and every song I heard just drove home the destructiveness of sexual sin and the pain I was in. Then something changed…
I began studying God’s Word and I stumbled upon (more like the Holy Spirit led me) to Galatians 4:8-9 which says,
“…indeed when you did not know God, you served those which by nature are not gods. But now, after you have known God, or rather are known by God, how is it that you turn again to the weak and beggarly elements, to which you desire again to be in bondage.”
Immediately I wanted to point my finger at my husband and say “See!! See!! You’re supposed to be a Christian and look what you’ve done! God saved you from all your sins and here you’ve spend all these years placing yourself in bondage and going back to those some weak and beggarly elements!!” And at that moment the Holy Spirit spoke to me, deep in my soul, “Do you not do the same thing?” I was shocked. Why would God compare my sins, my small, unremarkable sins, to what Gavin had done. I mean, come one, he committed adultery! How is that even in the same ballpark? Then the Holy Spirit spoke to me again, “Is lack of self-control not weak? Is acting out in wrath not beggarly? And what of unkind thoughts?” Wow! I was so consumed with pointing out my husband’s sin and the pain I was in, that I didn’t notice myself going back to the weak and beggarly elements as well.That day I realized that for my heart and our marriage to be restored, it would have to begin with ME. I know, sounds crazy, right? But that’s the truth. No matter what God was doing to transform my husband (and boy did He ever!!), if I wasn’t willing to open up and let God heal my own heart, our marriage could not have been revived. If I wasn’t willing to submit to God and resist the devil, we would still be stuck in that pit. Healing takes two. And as much as I wanted to blame Gavin for everything and point out how big of a sinner he was, I had to shift my focus and get myself in line with God’s Word. It was then, and only then, that our healing process began. “…submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. Draw near to God and He will draw near to you…” James 4:7-8. Through Christ, we have the ability to walk in freedom and be completely fulfilled, no matter what our circumstances are or how people hurt us. Healing begins when we recognize that we ALL need God's grace.
Walking in Freedom,
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